"I am a mistake of nature, a mad beast.”
"What I did was not for sexual pleasure. Rather it brought me some peace of mind."
"But the whole thing —the cries, the blood, the agony—gave me relaxation and a certain pleasure."
Last words: “Don’t blow my brains out! The Japanese want to buy them!”
― Andrei Chikatilo
During the last few months in the army, Nilsen met a man, and they developed a close friendship. Nilsen was clearly in love and he got the young man, who was not gay, to pretend to be dead while he took home movies. Their parting was a source of great pain for Nilsen. He destroyed the films he had made and gave the projector to his friend.